desintegrate.to.a.place.where.rose.are.black

•●•●where love rules,there is no will for power,and when power predominates,love is lacking..one will always shadow the other•●•●

2010-02-20T05:21:00.000-08:00

what if our happiest thoughts are those written in the saddest songs?

what if your continuous lie became my truth?

what if every phone call from you is a speaking of a angry soul?

what if those you gave are those that u remember and those that u recieve are those you forget?

•●•●•●•●•●i guess thats why its "the-end", and mistakes will never be repeated●•●•●•●•●•

- Man of value not sucess -

2009-11-24T11:30:00.000-08:00

Been 123123years since i blog,

quite busy this few days.

alright will name the top few events that i did from last month onwards

....

1) celebrate royston bday at sentosa ( royston please and cassandra please upload foto )

2)kid(leo) bday at arranda country club.(pics on f.b)

3)went snowboarding with jason

4)one day to malaysia with zee and peeps

5)l4d 2 with jason feroz kenny !!wakakaka ..rawks man

6)watch 2012 with feroz,yong xin and ammanda.

7)went afa with joyce...cant believe she's soo into anime..zzz

8)went lawrys with bin lun and steph.. bin lun!stop being such a busy man and spent time with us!!! im enlisting soon!

9)slacking my ass at home

for those events that i miss out..ps man..im old!blind,deaf,limping and have bad memory...

here are some photos to fill up this post!

anyway why the fcuk am i blogging..this shit blog is half dead

fuuuuu youuuuu!

somehow the feelings still linger

2009-10-31T10:09:00.000-07:00

enlisting soon..life ... c(;

Something just dosent feels right,

a instinct a urge to find something,

not sure what is it,

just want to sit around,

and hope to sit and share my world..with...

haha...fcuking hit my total volume!

haha...yessshhhh..got ma smif!

going malaysia next month..haha

short 1 week trip before ns.

Even a spoilt clock is at least right twice a day

2009-10-15T01:17:00.000-07:00

WORK WORK

company:smith and barron

5 days a week!2.30-830 ,

job scope ,building relationship

status : consultant

pay, 2k + smif and commision

location : taka tower b

fun : nope

tirring : nope

tough ; nope,challanging

OMFG , loves my job la,except for the after hours stays(knnbccb)

aniway,guys!be positive..believe in something that keeps u going,wheather its religeon or some shit ,just fcuking believe

ouh ya...heres my religeon"my religeon is simple..i bow to no one,i go no temple and i pray to no god ..cause im the god and i only believe in myself. and..may god blast you"

OLD MANS 25tH bday (his first wise hair)

here some pics...enjoy

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being love gives u strenght,but loving some1 needs courage

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To steph : im really not sure what ya hidding,but anyway dont give up on love man!
and rmb if ya need a arm to lie on,theres always 3 strong 1 over here for ya!"bin lun,daryl and me" aniway which deep wound wouldnt heal without a scar? like me,scars are mark of strenght,courage and experience ..find me a warrior,warlord or war god in any movie with no scars !I too gone through a fcuk of a 6 months rollercoaster ride that i wont forget,
those lies to me,my parents and those insults to the people that i loved..and even till today,
i dont even hate her..and wana know why?..
cause in anger..theres hatred and below hatred theres always love..sooo..
hate him means ..love him!soo why hate that mr unknown

-everywhere i hear your name,every corner i seems to turn-

2009-10-07T14:04:00.000-07:00

yeah,used to say im not this kinda guy,dont do love and this kinda shit.

used to be a love skeptic never hope for a love epic.

friend said: look at those celebrity,being procastinated by society ,

being bitch around by paparazi,but till the day,

they walk up the stage..

those tears they shed those smile they grin,

tell us that they never given up in life...

cause they persist...

And in life,it isnt about the amount of chances

people had given you,its about wheather

will u give urself that one last chance to

pick urself up again,and start a new era of life.

love might have given up on u,but as long as ya there

"single" and not giving up,ya just like a stash

of notes lying around the streets waiting to be

picked up and wheather how much value the

stash of notes is worth,greatly depends on

your character,attitude,personality and looks..so just hold on...

Dont ever let one mistake judge and

mark the end of your life even if it it resembles failure..

if we use to be like a dollar note,now we are torn apart...

dosent mean i have the value of none.

Even though theres no cure,no drug to cure a dying heart,

i rather live without you..though i felt like half of who i can...

Even if i feel sick without you and allergic to this

pain,i will still walk away from u..because its obvious i can..

know u wont even bother reading this post..

but just incase,i just wana apologize for the past..

and i never regretted choosing my friends.

i also wana apologize for contacting u that day,

i didnt know thats how u feel and the way u react..

it my mistake..sooo,hmmmm..sorry.

Buddy just want me to forget about the past,

thats why she ask me to contact those that hated me

in the past and at least start anew

with them as strangers...im happy that i have a few

back...Royston,daniel(his in auzzie now),joyce,jessica,

wei kang and of cause lastly of cause hopping

kester would talk to me again as well.

KENNY:happy ya found a job,as promise i shall work with ya for a month to keep u motivated,sorry as i cant work full time as i have another job at hand..and it really tirring...ouh ya! GOOD LUCK TO YOU AND CATHRIENE!she's hot!FCKING GOOD TATSE LA BRO!

CARROL:STUDY HARD MAN!!WANA SEE YA SCORE IN YA EXAMS!...yeah,thanks for all the time squeezed out for me ,even though ya busy..YA my SUPER BUDDY LA..And i know u like me!!lol,to be less thick skin ..yeah...i admire ya charm,ya attitude,ya heart to help out others and the abillity to make me laugh like a child again..soo i can conclude,that i used to like u..haha...yeah! buddy ferrrr life mannn!and i always treat ya like my siblings!kor kor will always be there ^^

LEO:Know ya miss edwin!but understand bro!his still in camp and wont be out till next thursday.yeah," even though you are not who u want to be, even though you are not who ought to be even though you are not who u seems to be -- but at least u are not who you used to be --will rmb this phrase man...correct me if i had it wrong,CAUSE YA DAMM SOFT OVER THE PHONE LA!and the taxi theory i will rmb!and bro..i had 1 chance to make my decision again..to choose friends or lover..i will still be here,single again!i never wana loose u all!! esp you!!!!

FRANCIS:POWER LA!! now got gf already!! come home like 476983621896289hours later then usual!leave me alone at home to rott!!bruthaaa man!!!haha...aniway francis got very high standards,soo hisexpectation is veRRRyyYYY high..sooo it took him 5-6 years to find a gal! ya patient had pay off la bro!and i know u wont read my blog!..soo left my laptop in front of the t.v ..hopping you will read it!!haha.

listening to the song free fall..memories....haizz

freefall tricky stewart

Let the past be the past babe

see we've all made mistakes

but i won't judge its okay

i just wanna be honest

please don't let me hit the ground

stay around, don't fade away

can i trust you, will you trust me

will you be my family

be my friend and my lover

will you ride or die for me

we're only human, we all got problems

i know it might sound like a dream

let's be free free free, you and me

i just wanna free free fall into love's arms

you and me, free

life can be so hard

be free to fall in love

trust that you'll be strong enough to catch me

free free fall in love's arms, love's arms

boy i need to know that

if life knocks us down

can you hold on, will you step it up

i'll be your one and only

let's make it official right now

i'm ready to fall for you

can i trust you, will you trust me

will you be my familybe my friend and my lover

will you ride or die for me

we're only human, we all got problems

i know it might sound like a dream

let's be free free free, you and me

i just wanna free free fall into love's arms

you and me, freelife can be so hard

be free to fall in love

trust that you'll be strong enough to catch me

free free fall in love's arms, love's arms

now i see things differently

i want simple things

just wanna be happy

love is what i want

and i hope you feel the same

so lets goits just you and me, free fallin

can i trust you, will you trust me

will you be my familybe my friend and my lover

will you ride or die for mewe're only human, we all got problems

i know it might sound like a dream

let's be free free free, you and me

i just wanna free free fall into love's arms

you and me, freelife can be so hard

be free to fall in love

trust that you'll be strong enough to catch me

free free fall in love's arms, love's arms

i just wanna be free to love, love, love...

behind every sucessful man is a women

2009-10-05T10:03:00.000-07:00

From sea to sea Country to country

u gal bring me the delicacies

It's a meeting of the feeling

To ease the turmoil

360 degrees Around the earth's soil

- a wasted day -

woke up late today,miss bbdc lesson,

1 miss call from yong quan then carrol,

was expecting dons CALL!

aniway meet carrol at late noon,

chill out in the clubhouse,

haha,laptop no batt,soo used hers..

ouh ya,get a mouse la carrol!

aniway u sawit on msn just now right..

tskkk..haha,in ya face.

aniway,please sent me the foto that u took just now

met y.g around 6,haha...he S.P la..

got a bike that fast!zzz

haha,yeah...he change alot,since 2 years ago..

now working at lfs,earning a decent living!

rawk on bro!

haha,tommo0row will be the meeting up of some old lost friends.

1st will be kester !then wei sun...

ouh ya last but not least jessica..

and curse u don!!

say meet nvr meet!,

ouh ya talk to sarah on msn just now,

shes damm dumb la.

FRANCIS ATTACH...WAKAKAK ...

CCB!!!LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
WAKAKAKAKA...

I CANT BELIEVE WHAT I JUST HEARD LA
LOLOLOLOL

haha...chao

make me a killer

2009-10-04T00:33:00.000-07:00

lets avoid hated and hatred,

lets remain thnakfull for what we have,

lets avoid all lies and sins ..

My mind is suffocating,

enough will never satisfy,

and satisfy will always be complacent,

in this world truth quest,

greed is a law,

that we have to abide ,

though is ruthless...

we will never have enough till we are toothless

or millionare.

heres alittle dissaster for me,

for being un-appreciative,

wanted a perfect life,

smile have fun then die old,

fame ,money,sex,women,magic ,cribos and white gold.

drive a lambo before i hit double 2.

wearing tux in town while having pics,

with 2 hot mediacorp chicks,

doing pose thingy and hot tricks...

now i know its wrong,

pleasure from partying

and this bullshit wont last long...

anyway had fun at billy's gf bday bbq,

here are some pics..

to carRol : yeah, ya told me the best way to forget some1 totally is to talk to that some1,

but ya never tell me what if that some1 avoids YOU!!Plan b,

haha...guess is best to cont loving others to tell urself that ya moving on..hint *

anyway,to that question i will answer it now..is that day when u work out in gym with that anger,look pretty gansta!thats what attracted me haha...to those who have mis-conception, i like fierce hot gal not those gansta lian...

everytime i close my eye c_ _ _ _ L i see ya...T_T

thats disaster la!!i wana see my dream car,dream house,swimming in money!!

the last hope that sparks the person change

2009-09-28T00:36:00.000-07:00

you guys are the sparks in my dream and the flame that burns in my heart

went city hall with feroz,then lunch..

shushi rawks right bro?

nb...got the best wasbi shot of my life la!!

meet kenny soon after,played pool..

kena own,sian..and worst of all!!!

i lost to kenny la!!wha pian...lose face till the max!

Cab down to leos place!!

best drink since ever la!

DANIEL: sorry bout the past dude,alittle reckless in making my decision and ignorring

ya as a friends,but either way let by-gone be by-gone and make whatever best our friendship can give..will be sending u off to the airport if possible..actually kinda miss ya...

KENNY:love u dude!!every1 do...we are the very last of those people that gonna give up on ya!

never give up man!the tears that u shed are just regrets of your past..let those regret morth into motivation of a new life!dont pai kia anymore kay ken! anyway i hate joshua!! fcuking get him out of ur life,i want no 1 to leach on mah bro!dont give up kenny..nothing in this life is difficult ,its just challanging..makes us proud!

LEO:never deny the fact that we are always the 2 young kids,pulling and carrying each other up when we fall...bro!ya the M.V.P in genes life!haha,wana thanks you again for picking me up whenever im drunk.haha,no tattoo is ever bigger then the one that cover 3/4 of my heart la bro!!ouh ya..we love kenny right?????

FEROZ:we never change man,top notch in alcohol...and always full of topics that never end..

love ya for one thing man!!is the gansta kinda steady u give me...thats what i want!!!haha..yeah,

even though we dont talk often,i still regard ya as some1 close...clearly still rmb the days where u talk to me at parcoasis when i and dan was in a fight...touching as it is!!i too select the people around me carefully,and ya always the top choice.

BAO AND AMANDA LAI!! BAO!!! i only knew u for being billy cousin la,but pretty much a nice person to hang aound with ^^thanks for the cab back and thanks again for both of ya guys making a effort to actually meet up for a drink!!and amanda! i shall forgive for slapping me as u offered me 2 peice of pan cake!so its fair now!

TO SOME1 special: every1 never gave up on u bro,esp me...make us proud..i know u will

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soo,we go and on this merry-go-round to chase the dream that will never be found

2009-09-23T01:06:00.000-07:00

Even if it takes forever to see

What happiness really means to me

I understand love will always be

in perfect harmony

between you and me

the change of a new lifestyle sparks me a new ,ME,

no more GENE TAN YONG JING!

ouh ya, got a new tatt!haha,planning to expand it till full back!

eik!!!when ya gonna book out and lay some tatt on our bod!

aniway babe,Be open to all your possibilities; all possibilities and Miracles.

cause only when u believe! there will be hope...stop being soo negative,

and asssuming,things aint that bad as u think it is.

it just really needs some time.

looking forward for this sat..to clarify that blur mind of ours!

aniway..need to buy formal wear laA!

office life is back,but not for long i guess.

get some cash and hit the road for ns!!

aniway search network finally release my pay..

waited like donkey years la..

soo much to blog,soo little time left,

hmmm,gotta go gym then hook up with the stylist for my appointment at 7!

haha..for members in poa!! rawk on

ouh ya,francis going malaysia in 2 days time!

going to be ----->freaking<---- board la!

check.out.my.new.watch.from.French.Connection.U.K..

cause me a bomb la!!but thats bragging rights!!haha

aniway gotta chaao la!

I count the hours,

I count the days.

How much I miss you,

I count the ways.
I miss your voice,

I miss your touch.

And I miss the face,

That I love so much.

its true that we havent met for days,

its true that , i even change my way,

even though,i still love u soo.

and chanel.p.p.......

ur mine to hold

my cinderella in every fairy-tale

2009-09-08T00:01:00.000-07:00

man says to lover :

i will dream a life time just to meet my dream gal .

me to my b.b :

i will just live a life time just to dream of you baby!

Countless event happened within this few weeks,

and not certain where to start from...hmmm...ma babe!!

to chanel: guess is not easy acepting my life ,my people around me and my charcter,

but vice versa,we have to get use to each other..easy task la !! we both 26th feb

babies!!haha.

mum!!i understand..but who cares about her and her family,

let bygone be bygone..those past that being chain behind concrete walls!!

just be proud of me mum..just look at how well ya son is doing now ^^

haha..caught blood ties with babe yest!! its blardy!!!.....blardy!!!!...blardy!!!

BORRING!!!!haha...critics advice!dont see that show unless ya wana find a

good place to sleep..ouh yah babe!! i love u loads la...dont worry,will treat ya better

by the day..let the feelings blossom man!!RELATION TAKE TIME TO GROW ITS ROOTS

LIKE HOW PLANT TAKE TIME TO BEAR ITS FRUITS!!HAHA.

2009-09-06T08:43:00.001-07:00

E.T.F.F!!! ^^

days....

2009-08-08T13:32:00.001-07:00

used to love u,
never were to regret,
wasnt infactuation,
just days u neglect.

said u loved me,
said u will,
mention we will last,
but..the promise u fail.

the break up u ask..
it ended u cried,
said its my fault,
and soo i didnt tried..

once apon a time,
came to an end,
here we are single,
all over again..

blame on me,
said its my fault,
i tried changing and came begging,
maybe u forgot,

7 of august
two thousand & nine,
2 words u said to,
in anger u pinned.

2 day have past,
like it never end,
but this relationship ,
i know we will never meant..

just to tell u,
im not the 1 at fault,
u assume me and another gal,
that really meants alot...

aniway,it have ended,
forever it will be,
to chase my dreams again..
and thats my destiny..

fcuk you...hahaha

NATIONAL DAY SONG

2009-08-02T10:08:00.001-07:00

2009-05-20T10:47:00.000-07:00

- fallen in love with you again the 100th time -
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know u've been down this few days,
and having not much to say..
cause you soo many tears,
And neglecting u in every way.
.
tried the best i can,
but problems always out of hand.
tried fixing back,
but somethings are just never meant.
.
try to accept who you am,
not wanting you to change..
love who u are,
no more parts to rearrange.
.
future there wont be any crying,
just smile laughter and fun..
babe i promise u,
its i and you just under the sun.
.
embracing new love,
getting rid of the old..
negativity is out,
is only ur hands for me to hold.
.
maybe its time for me to grow up,
and get my own plan..
to understand and accept you better,
like im ur no.1 fan ..
.
from now till always,
we will never be apart..
cheryl lin xue and eugene ,
as promised...
they will live as 1 heart..

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baby, sorry bout those stuff that i said ...they were never meant ....
maybe giving and accepting is better then taking
as the fragrance of rose will always remains, on the givers hand.

2009-05-18T14:31:00.000-07:00

- Be-gone! child of darkness -

hey!! bbdc !! u evil bastard ... covering me with one of the cheapest insurance

plan la!! my death dont worth only 10k! seriously!! fcuk u n.t.u.c income .. tskkk

aniway..no worry still .... have my theory to complete...

was given 3 sets of books to study from -_-" !

1) basic theory of driving

2)final theory of driving

3)pratical training handbook

hmm...hope to finish them by end of this month..

faster i finish ,the faster i get to drive... aniway dad promised to help me out with a car .

And here are the fcuking books ..

condoms are family planners ....use them or regret mann!! learn my lesson...alittle latex go a long way mann!!! yeahhh... here are some condoms that i wana introduce ...espire " springer " thin, easy on ,spermicide and its have a spring head to prevent discomfort during play/durex together .. at $7.80 for 12 peice of easy wear condom and lubi ..why not? haha
/okamoto" ultra thin" $7.20 a box for 12 peice of 0.02mm thin condoms!! pleasure la!!

- alright extreme gyming starts once more..planning to gain 15kg of muscles in 2months!!wish me good luck man!! sign up for gyming course.. bought my weight gainner!! wakakaka.. here i go ! got 2 tubs of pro performance 2200 at $148 each!! wakakaka...and mum force me to buy calcium pills ...tskkkk...

2009-05-13T17:47:00.000-07:00

- promised , never existed -
- never -
- ever -
- and -
- ever -
- it will exist -
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You are right, what never meant to be will never be .
Pass events will be place in oblivion .
Promised shall be treated as another vocab that i learned .
And to someone ,i still love you and i really cant bare to leave you..
but.....
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.

Time to concentrate on my studies,driving license and my future ..
.
this will be the last post to my blog.
the story will end here ...
hmmm.. special thanks to ..
cai fang ( helping building up blog-skin )
jessie ( for the tag board )
Bea ( know ya always reading )
Simon ( my "always" reader )
Don ( first guy who tag on my tag board )
Rachael ( loyal blog fan )
Joyce ( i know u have been reading )
cherry ( for all the sweet tags )
and all those readers and bloggers who linked me up ...thank you .
.
new blog link will be posted up on my facebook notes and status .
add me up c(;
( cheeky_godzilla@hotmail.com )

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2009-05-10T09:08:00.000-07:00

- surprised by the mother's day -

Was playing xbox360 ... was having a damn bored time ...
till someone repeatedly knock on my room door !
was thinking to myself , other then mum ,who else was at home .
soooo , being irritated by the door-knocks i walk out of my room!!
guess who i saw!!
hmmm..baby requested me to hug mummy!!
was shy! but i did!! wakaka.. what a mothers day man ..
celebrate mothers day with both of ma mummy!haha...mum was happy la!! got her hug!!
wakakaka ... was forced to eat some heart shape with baby and mummy ate it with babys mum!
damm sweet la ... haha,when i say sweet !! im saying that the cake is damm sweet!!!
hmmm.... but no choice, cake of love! have to eat!
went out for dinner afterwards at IMM ,when to eat japanese buffet!! rawks la..eat like pig

hmmm... gotta go go!! chao! weeeee

2009-03-19T21:31:00.000-07:00

- just a little bit -
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bunking at dans place for the past few days,
really misses those moments!!wahaha....its damm fun la!
we finish chivas,black label..now going for cordon blu...

hmmmm...went out with baby and her family for dinner..
little worried sick still...didnt leave good impression with her dad.
ainway,thanks babe...sending me all the way to queenstown then
train all the way back to pasir ris...thats really sweet!...
further more,talking this night owl to sleep before midnight..wow...
if ani1 dare tell me there's a better gal then baby in any corner of this earth,
he/she watch to many drama show...haha
.
to some1 that i will rather lose myself, before lossing her......
.
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you are the greatest discovery of my life,
you are the existence of love,
and i found you...
searching my life through...
soo rare thats its true,
the defination of love is you...

2009-03-16T23:49:00.000-07:00

- points in love -

YAy!! got another date out with baby! a date at a childcare centre!! wahaha

wierd place to get dated aitte? but overall,its still damm memorable la!

hmmm...baby told her mum all about me...worried sick...smoke,drink and have tattoo...zzzz...which mum in a right mind will accept a guy like that..haha

was alittle pissed off with her at the begining for telling her mama..but understood and appreciated what shes done....LOVE YA CHERRY LIN XUE E!! and of course,her mama..accepted me for who i am!! weeehheeee...shared lots of things with me..and then i finnaly get to know more about baby....!!

haha...help out in preperation of po- pia making...haha,

got a custom made carnivour version of popia from babys mum!!!she knows what i like la!!weeeeee...ouh ya..paint jobs really borring,but with baby around..who cares...wahhaha

theres this little room,where corn,i and baby hang out in!!(sharring room) love it soo much that we cam-whore there!!wahaha...heres alittle pic of what we did there

haha...after painting!! damm shag la!but aniway..got a call from dad and mum!!

we went dinner after that!!weeee.....ouh ya...we acted like ahbeng and lian,since mum and dad went to buy food!!...seee my ahlian face...sia lan sia!!

haha..baby say she looks wierd...but she looks kinda hot in this pic...seriously...
hmmm...baby...ya the 1 more reason in life that make me wana look forward to tomorrow...
ya like the sunrise to happiest moments of life and like the sunset...ya always close my chapters of bad memorys..baby....dont ever give up on me.

2009-03-13T18:38:00.000-07:00

don & sarah fought ,

over the most stupid reason ever...

can blame don...if i were him..

i might do the same thing,

heres a song from too phat..

hmmm...its quite meaning-full

trust me,never trust a gal that say

HIS JUST A FRIEND..

to sarah,hope u know what ya doing.

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JUST A FRIEND (TOO PHAT)

have you ever met a gurl that you thought was perfect

you waited for her years 'cause you know she worth it

here's a lil' story bout this gurl i knew

since wayback in pre-school sometime in '82

she had 'em two pony tails and a front tooth missin

'wit' freckles on her cheeks cause the moms caucasian

up on a tree house is where we chilled together

with carvings on the trunk saying friends forever

she the type who laugh when the normally cried

and when they busy playing house we playin' bonnie and clyde

in grade school everybody knew we partners in crime

we usta bully kids in playgrounds like all the time

we always seen holdin' hands to the principal's office

the naughtiest in town and could no other kid stop usin high

skool she switched her desk next to mine

so we could cheat while doing pop quizes all the time

14th of February '93

little Jenny said she had a big suprise for me

gave me the very kiss and plus a ring and a card

and said I love you, so I gave her the rest of my heart

a coupla weeks later called her house at 10

the mama said I thought you suppose to be with Jen

I quickly rushed to the crib, she just got out of a van

I'm like yo who was that?

oh he's just a friend.....

Chorus 2X

you, you got what I need

but you say he's just a friend,

but you say he's just a friend.

so I took Jenny's word for it at this time

I thought just having a friend it couldnt be no crime

'cause even I have friends and babys that for sho

just like Watson, Hailee, Baby Tash and Joe

so we never talked about that late snack with van man

we rather talk about the future we have planned and

what to name our kids, al-Tarique or Shaymar?

Ayesha, or Tisha for a gurl and maybe even bring our

kids to that little tree house that we chilled at

but then in '94 I couldnt help it but feel sad

Jenny had to leave me to go get a little knowledge

100 miles away in this place they call college

first coupla months it was cool but then it changed yo

she never called and really acted like a strange ho

one day I called it was picked up by a man

I called again, she picked it up and said hey that's just a friend

Bridge

You know,

I know what you been up to

I know you know what you been up to...

this guy in her study group's the one who picked up the call

helpin' her in chemistry wit cyclohexanol

I got curious and asked her who else in ya team?

she said Ali, Hassan, Noreen and Kareem

the next week I thought of givin' her a little suprise

but when in front of Jenny's dorm I cound't believe my eyes

I say the same ugly van I saw in '93

I found her room but guess what a brother had to see?

a fella half naked with my gurl on the couch

and baby Jenny moaning, uggg uggh aggh and ouch

so please listen to the message that I sing

don't ever talk to a gurl who says she just has a friend

Chorus

a lil' casanova pimp, man I had my fling

shoodrats to goodie hoodies I was lil' playa king

I'll tell ya when, my final year in '96

this hunny new in skool joined my class she really sick

she made her pinafore look like a dress from Rodeo,

and clean white shoes lookin' Ferra than Gamo's,

and white blouse seemed whiter than everybody else's

just like them ads on tv man this hunny was the nicest

I had to step up my game and I told her my name

she said her name was Wanda I found out

that we lived on the same street she moved in 5 blocks down

and after 3 dates and 6 banana splits I had it locked down

we was tight but had this lil's problem though'

cos Wanda always acted funny when wit' Mary Joe

but when I caught'em kissin it wasnt funny no more

baby smiled and just said she's just a friend yo.......

Chorus

2009-03-13T00:02:00.000-07:00

money is easy, baby is cherry
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there's more to life than just credit cards and money ,
now why we ballers sweatin' crazy chasin hunnies when i have cherry?

but if I was rich, I'd buy me mad bling blings ,
and fat chains that'll make ya neck hurt and platinum ring rings .

and 4 wheel drives wit' tv screens and mad audio,
and Playboy Bunnies to bring me milk and oreos ,
get personal trainers to take care of my cardio ,
hire dozen hunnnies in bikinis and parios .. ( opps )

Makin' money makin' money makin' money ,
Don't wake me up fool, im busy with all these hunnies ...

well if I had a million you know I'd spend buff fees ,
so I can get sicillians and go kidnap puffy ,
haha, takeover pasir ris and merry cherry!

and if i got a trillion...
and tell my agent to get hold of the president ,
make an offer cant refuse for his residence ...
then renovate the parc-oasis balconies ,
hire Chef Wan to make me cheese and macaroni ..

gonna camwhore of me and my baby in center of med sea,
if not I'll buy an island just off South China Sea ,
escape mad city life and let my conscience free
under shady palm trees, Kawasaki jet skis
and enjoy 2nd person world with me and cherry!!!

this-blog-not-dead

2008-12-28T06:27:00.000-08:00

for those who notice that i have not blog a long time...actually i have open another blog.
lots of things have to be keep private with a few peeps...soo those who have my private blog add ,please dont spoil it by giving it out..please100 ...aniway this blog still alive!!! will be updating it very soon!

POst-ChrisTmas-Eve-Lepak-party

2008-12-23T21:57:00.000-08:00

Weheeee,dans mom just went overseas and its one more good reason for me to step out of my house.hahahaha....alright just went there yesterday,alright...meet don at 7pm then we head straight down..as usual don will put his things down then go meet gals at town and jason will follow...zZz..NIce stuck in the house with the sleepy head dan,he slept!!! arghhh,so i played lotr.bfmE in his com.haizzzz......okay,i planned to disturb the hamster,but then 2nd thought,i promised some1 not to do it ..haha..see val!!!!i spared the hamster life...alright...ouh ya! the best part of the post christmas eve lepak party is,when i and dan go get food from a petrol kios...wkakakakaka,started raining at first then,it turn to a terrible thunder storm..haha soo we run bk to his place wet!!okok then dan have his damm funky idea of sitting at the pool side while getting drench ,weeee...haha and then we notice we are'nt jack ass enuf,sooooo......we jump into the pool with our home clothes!!!arghhh wet some $$$ ...zzZZzzz...now heading to another party...hey guys! will be heading to dans house in christmas night,around 9-10pm cya!!!!

detail-planning-&-reasons-of-life

2008-12-19T23:08:00.000-08:00

Always choose.failure,failure,failure then sucess
NOT
Sucess,sucess,sucess then failure

BUt of cause,i have a designated plan to keep out those "failure" steps.
this plan have been discussed and have to start as early as next week.

...Im only 17 this year,soo i decided to split my plan into 3 diffrent group,
*Future plaN( plan that streches over decades )
*moderate plan( plan that work out within this few years)
*instant plan( plan that i have to executed right now )

i will start from the very basics of my instant plan.
here are the very minor changes im gonna make..
*cutting cost of expenditure on monthly basics by 25%.
*fix deposits would not be tempered and touched till i reach age 21.
*find a low to average pay job with consistant working timing for 3 months.
(average 900 to 1.2k with cpf*)
*minimize outing with peers to less then twice a month.
*downgrade mobile plan to "i" value
*cut down smoking to half pack a day
*open another bank account to seperate my chinese new year and other festive
seasons money,(prevent lossing counts in figure)
*last of all,i will seize my plan of buying new desktop,dvd-player,new-year clothing,overseas trip,room-reno and the jan chalet (friends!! sorry for the dissapointment)
****conclusion for short term plan****
will save up to max 6.5k per annum( for less outing) average $520 monthly
will save up another4k per annum(working for 8 months) average $400 to $500 monthly
cpf build up of up to 2k,(will be divided to medi save and medi shield)
save another 1.2k on minimize smoking ^^
*********will re-caculate and upload the rest of my plan*******

short term solution to a long tym problem

2008-12-19T00:08:00.000-08:00

just got my room sorted out,got a new hd-tv to fit in...

darn,the gamer room dream is comming waaayyy close.

as every1 can see,its still in a mess...

aniway...back to my life story...

every1 knows im having a blardy bad time with life,due to joyce...hmmm...even though i only get to know her for only a short 3 years of my life,i never doubt it was the happiest few years i have live for...but as time passes,we found out that neither me or her was place in a ''fairy tale" ending,soo the gal would avoid the guy,and the guy would still want to carry on...And on that very 1 day she ask the guy"IF U WOULD LOVE ME ONCE AND FORVER,WHICH ARE THE THINGS U LOVE ME FOR?" Sooo the dumb guy "me" awnsered all kind of stupid points,from her attitude to her looks and everything...zZzZz...but then recently,i learned how to get over things..haizzz,for right now there would not be such thing as for lover in every corner i seems to turn kind of shet!FRIENDS OVER LOVER.....REALITY OVER FEELINGS ...

FriEnds-over-Lover

2008-12-14T10:21:00.000-08:00

*****perfect-never-met*****

friends over lover,

drinks over and past...

life make story tough,

like a worthless boat in storm of wrath...

when moments of joyce drift,

is always one step for me,closer to the clift....

little of those fairy tale fable we told once young,

or is it some fucking soothing punk...

lovely relationship ended for all meants,

memory of word 'forever' ended in a blink...

disturb in night,

distort in fright,

for every love i pick up no might...

stone in time,

words i rhyme,

for reason i need feel to climb...

less i said,

for love we made,

maybe u will never be my mate...

as we reverse into cycle of time,

for all i wish is to act back like words of mime...

if u hate me tell me though

tell me soo

u know i never would want u suffer in cold...

when springs falls the last leaf of shade,

memory of u,i will shed and fade...

when time comes u cross this rhyme,

dont find me,i would have another gal of dime ^^ ..

***** haha fuck u bitch*****

got a new editing software,not bad

2008-11-15T23:11:00.000-08:00

i got a new editing software,soo i start editing one of my pic..hmmm

check it out guys.....

days in disney

2008-11-15T23:07:00.000-08:00

will upload more photo,when im bk in sg..w8!!!

The_days_of_dawn_with_glimse_of_moonlight...

2008-11-09T15:57:00.000-08:00

tHe days With childlyk glee greet me yesterNight,
when Cruel deedS turNs to brutal fiGht....

speach heat up,as fights turn cold,
when the new story of you finnaly unfold...

when drugs sold and money rolled,
the new chapter of old life died and flowed...

being usless and attack by association,
i lost the courage,to save u from this cruel accusation...

chances and fate meets us up in the most unwanted senario,
in jail u are and alone ,this year i solo the last Xmas carol...

YoU apolOgised with sparklings glitterS of saddnes beneath youR eye ,
and a blame input myself ,as speach i sigh....

lyk my sibling lyk my soul
thoughts of this,makes my very last tear roll...

no cosy feelings of u makes no home,
no thoughts of you, my dreams cant roam...

final thoughts that strike my mind,
is why some1 lyk u,treat me one of a kind....

dedicating every sweat and blood,
doing this because i was in ur heart....

now the story end with me like soo,

in years when u are out,lets time warp to 9 years ago.

17.10.2008 till this day,i shall wait...will call u zaezae april...and u must reply! !

c(:

BAck_to_the_heart_of_lineage2

2008-11-01T12:46:00.000-07:00

been long tym not lineaging,haizz server already updated and im still hidden in the dark

of not awaring of it...zzZZZzzzz....aniway got a BLACK-WOLF finally...looks damm hot !

aniway thanks to my neighbour donavan,im now addicted again to lineage2!!back to my gamer life!!

finished the first tub!!!

2008-10-19T10:05:00.000-07:00

finally finish my first week course of weight gainner!!! finally i gain around 4 to 6 kg,thats pretty shocking Aniway...i will go on with the 2nd then 3rd tub...untill i reach the 6th tub..then i will change my course to whey protein.....Weeeee...i will upload my new improve picture of my figure once i hit my target!! around 3 weeks tym and my photo will be up !!....i hope ^^

australlia_need_to_go_there_again!!!

2008-10-08T08:52:00.000-07:00

argh!!! auzzie rocks,the sun,the wind,the hot babes there!!!!!wahhh and not forgeting the steaks..

aniway hope to go there soon,unless im ask to go there in the late december,its because its summer!!!!and summer meants,flies everywhere!those stupid flies attack everywhere..even into ur drink cans @_@ but then the flies there are dumb enuf to be pluck out of the air by me.."by fingers" of course......haizz miss those breeze....waiting...dreaming...hopping

greed_the_Achilles_heels_of_all_man_kind!

2008-10-01T07:59:00.000-07:00

Proven and tested by many survey,interview and articale, that out of 10 people in the world,
7 tend to greed...and out of the 7.....6 of them suffer great losses because of it...its human nature,
of being greedy and having more then what they deserve to sastified their desire of money...
35% of banruptcy cases in singapore are through gambling,24% credit card and most of the rest?
GREED!!!! most people get tempted when they are attend by some1 who can prredict their future, and put them in a very fun and conversation atmosphere,which they forgot ,and they cant seprate what is reality and whats virtual....Understanding that the rich get richer is a concept of what can u do with money...the rich shall propose,then the poor shall follow..its more of a cat and mouse game....i heard of story of people being millionare overnight,in a un-proper but almost legal method..lets say today me "eugene" want to have 10 thousand dollar,but i only have a 1thousand dollar,what would i do?maybe i could write a beautiful proposal then send it to a bank and using that proposal to loan a 10 thousand dollar loan with my company name,then after 2 months, my comany declare bancrupt...but...i still walk away with 10 thousand dollar.. or i could be a bucket shot company...use that thousand dollar to register a company,then find a rubbish asset as a backup,then bribe about my assets then i market it as a investment...which then i legally scam another 10 to 30 k from the poor but greedy people in society...soon after that... my company declare bancrupt...and im 30 thousand richer!!haha...see how it works?
rich get richer....soo dont be such a charity hearted chap if u planning to get rich haha...fuck =)

shet! do i get paid less then a macdonald staff!!

2008-09-29T20:23:00.000-07:00

hey hey hey...what kind of company pays staff basic pay for a 7 hour and 5 days a week job for only 400 hundred dollar per month? wtf!! i wont take that money,shame on me if i do..
im no uniforming wearing staff who werks in factory,what the fuck this company expect?

its not me and conspiracy theory,its just that somethings are too obvious

2008-09-29T08:56:00.000-07:00

company,just gave up a new memo...giving out 5 to 8 tyms buy back and returns,
for a plot of land in 3 to 6 months tym....pretty hearth itching i guess,
but im not sure im buying an idea lyk that....is it true that most sales staff in the company,
are the biggest client for the company income?or is it greed thats the biggest failure man could meet...hmmm....question start rolling....why is the company giving such offer in tyms of economic crisis..willl company hit and run?"collect a sum of money...declare bancrupt,then open another company with a new name"...will that happen?........if the company is soooo generous ,why is the company still deducting our pay to its minimum?....is the company hiring young staff,because they no nothing?hmmm maybe again,its my conspiracy shet!
haha...fark!need awnser! no more roller coaster ride that leads no ending... haha

wIngs of kamaels just for you

2008-09-28T09:10:00.000-07:00

this one poem,that i read up that day from my rhyme book,that been
written by me last year for the cupids contest!
hmmm...the feeling of love in a fantasy gameplay called lineage2!

u know u could be my fantasy gal,
even if fairy tale know you as my cinderella u will...

if i be in your very world,
this world will multiply ,when u r that gal...

cover me with your dream and lie,
cry late cinderella of mine...

u can be my queen of hearts,
and i will surrender to u as the rest of the cards...

if i have 1 wings today,
i willl cover you from cold wind that wistle and sway...

but if my wings have grow and 2,
we shall take of to island,and fly away with you...

in reality love is soo blind,
thats why i never leave u out in virtual world mine.

when kamaels sore this wings of sky,
hold me tight as we sore and fly...

through the sky and past the winds,
u will know im always within...

take my hand as we scan the world,
for better place,as life soo cruel....

lets settle down and stare at milky way,
and count stars as blessings,lyk an old man says....

i shall wait for cupids to shoot me through,
for this word,for now .... i'll leave with you........

virg_inbloods's poem for cupids contest =)

2008-09-23T20:50:00.000-07:00

some1 ani1...get the game bullet witch!!!this game rocks to u to the center of your bone!...gamers be advice,blood gore and violence haha..zZz still waiting for gears of wars 2 be out..live to game not game to live guys!!

guess what i got!!!

2008-09-21T20:29:00.000-07:00

finally its here...phone for the computer geeks!

million dollar question of the month!!!

2008-09-21T20:10:00.001-07:00

if a chaemeleon stare into a mirror what colour will it change into?

my smallest deal!!!

2008-09-20T04:46:00.001-07:00

i want to thanks sophia and y.p for helping me close the deal on the last day of the week!!!!!i cant do it on my own!!!thanks guys!even its alittle small but i think its still okay haha...GOGO u.k prime land!

let kindness drain and hatret flow through my vain.

2008-09-18T04:51:00.000-07:00

its from hatret thy know this world
its from kindnes my concious is clear.....

from empty mind i found my wondering soul
its from my soul,my life melt and flow.....

meet fate once or meet fate twice
meet fate again ,and it shall leave with cries.....

try the temptation,try the greed,
try my drakness and my new evolution is breed....

with one soul,cant make the change,
with more then one,the cries remain.....

if i tried to change me soo
i shall be tempted,of leting go.....

if i be myself for onemore day,
then i could just stand aside and rot and sway....

the day which all my kindness drain,
is the day i shall have all hatred that will flow through thy vain....

gene come down now!help me pass this present to...

2008-09-15T20:04:00.000-07:00

6months not met...but still since and like before....
we joke we laugh,we share our problems...we still share the same grounds of helping each other..

i told her that..because of u today im not the eugene i have been before..
i have never been myself since the day u bid me goodbye.
but overall,i have no regrets,we tried,we make impossible possible..
JOyce im soo proud of u...and im never been more happy with others then u..
u give me one more reason not to give up in life..
and u are the only reason i need...haha...ended since feb ^^
ONCE A PAPER IS CRUMPLED IT CANT BE PERFECT AGAIN!!!

elemental,part of life...

2008-09-13T04:38:00.000-07:00

obsession by name,
infactuated by game,
love me twice and i shall feel the same...

remember the words,
that have been teared,
for love can only be hurt but never be feared....

random thoughts fly by my mind at nine,
at twelve in dawn i still swear and sign,
for the persons i lost,that used to me mine....

together we put our feeling to the test,
and allow people who disagree us ,be our guest,
lets freefall in love with no protest....

lets duplicate the feeling we once had,
and multiply the feelings we once met,
subtract the sub-emotion ..and now we are paired...

the day u said u love me soo,
is the day i wont be cold.....

but the day u left me away,
i felt soo lost,lyk i am left astray...

if the day comes for me and u
would u stand by me,and accept me still...

if u would..and your awnser is do..
i would wait donkey years lyk a fool...

if the years i waited have gone to a waste,
then i shall,surrender but still persue the case...

the case which i will never let go hold,
is the case where love start toll...

if time end lyk crisoms fate,
i will still be there for you....i wont be late!

sad_no_deal!!!!

2008-09-12T02:46:00.000-07:00

tirring day today!....
sian...no deal again no deal...
maybe is just luck bah in sale!
haizzz...
next,18 of this month,will have to try my best today..
hey guys today cant meet up with u!!!
need go play dota at colleages house.
cya guys next week!